“Oh when you walk by every night, talking sweet and looking fine …

I get kind of hectic inside”-that’s right.  Mariah and the dearly departed ODB (that’s Ol’ Dirty Bastard for those of you not down with Wu-tang.)  This is a great song.  Love it.  Love it a million times.  In spite of all Mariah’s insanity, she does kind of rock.  Maybe the craziness adds to the allure.  I mean, is it even possible to be a really creative person without a certain level of insanity?  You never hear about any artist of any type with some totally stable life.  Just looking at my playlist, for example … Kurt Cobain (drug addict with major major depression), Paul Westerberg of the Replacements (alcoholic who had nervous breakdown), Perry Farrell of Jane’s Addiction (heroin addict), etc., etc.  Hmmmm … does unhappiness lead to creativity?  Can people be creative when they are happy?  Interesting …

Oooh … another good song.  Vonda Shepherd cover of “I Only Want to Be With You” from Ally McBeal soundtrack.  If you’ve ever watched “Arliss”, that’s the theme song. 

Just finished a bunch of laundry and watched the Office which is pretty hilarious tonight.  Still not as funny and edgy as when it first came on, but a good episode none the less.  It feels nice to be home and relax tonight, instead of torturing my insides with booze.  As Alicia Silverstone says in Clueless:  “I know it sounds mental, but sometimes I have more fun vegging out than when I go partying. Maybe because my party clothes are so binding.”  Couldn’t agree more.  “Within Your Reach” by the Replacements on now.  Fantastic song from the Say Anything soundtrack.  Such a great movie.  Is there any woman in their 30s/40s who is NOT in love with John Cusak because of that movie?  One of the top 80s romantic movie characters.  I’d put him right underneath Jake Ryan in 16 Candles who HAS to be number one.  O.K., so of course you remember the pivotal scene in Say Anthing with JC and the boombox with “In Your Eyes.”  What’s funny is that, of course, at the time, I, along with every other girl, thought “wow … how romantic.  To have a guy holding up a boombox playing the song you lost your virginity to outside your window in a desperate attempt to get you back!”  Now, though, I have to admit … if I broke up with someone and they showed up outside my door with a boombox, I’d be really creeped out.  Probably call the police.  DEFINITELY get a restraining order. 

I just read this article in the Oprah Magazine that had a great description of this woman profiled … “she is the kind of person who makes her own weather.”  I love that.  I would like to be the sort of person who makes my own weather, also.  I have been called “Hurricane Lisa” from time to time.  I tend to blow in and quickly disrupt everything.  Sometimes, I’d like to be more like a balmy, tropical breeze.  Perhaps if I took more Valium … “Jane Says” … fucking fantastic song.  Did I put this on my list of great songs about heroin use/abuse?  If not, it should def be on there.  “Jane says I’m done with Sergio … he treats me like a rag doll … I’m gonna kick tomorrow.”  

Another great song … thank God for music … I would be so lost without music … the Wreckers, “Crazy People.”  This is absolutely my theme song … “Only crazy people, fall in love with me, they come from all over, just to be with me … bank robbers and killers, drunks and drug dealers, only crazy people fall in love with me.”  Any of you who know me personally know this is indeed true.  I tend to attract a wide variety of convicted felons, people with chemical dependencies, as well as anyone with some sort of severe, untreated mental illness.  It’s those artistic types, I’m telling you.  I know I’ve discussed this before but TRUST ME … deep and profound = unstable and psychotic.  They always LOOK normal in the beginning but … something always snaps.  And then you get ex-boyfriends calling your bff’s husband at 8 a.m., 6 mos. after your break-up to discuss strategies to get back together.  (That’s still a funny story, Kim.  Poor N.)  Perhaps I should stick with athletes.  They tend to be uncomplicated.  What you see is what you get.  Which is really refreshing.  Until … until I get bored.   I like edgy and complicated.  But it’s a fine line between “complicated” and fully going off the rails on the crazy train.   

O.K., I have a date with Scott for 6:30 a.m. yoga tomorrow (and no, I don’t mean a real date … Scott is my yoga instructor.  I know the “date” word might be confusing considering the amount of people I’ve dated at my gym recently but this is really just for exercise) and must get some sleepy sleep.  Hope everyone is fantabulous this evening … wait … cannot sign off without telling you that Whitesnake “Here I Go Again” is playing on my Itunes.  “Here I go again on my own … going down the only road I’ve ever known … like a drifter I was born to walk alone…”  Crappiest. Lyrics. Ever.  But a great cheesy hair-band tune.  Love it.